Wanting not to want

Morning Meditation 🧘‍♀️ 

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my #minime awoke early and joined my morning yoga flow which made me switch gears. We settled into a 5 min peaceful meditation instead and mid mantra she spoke “I want to be on the mat.”

Which had me notice.

Maybe it was the moment of peace but it had me reflect back on the “want.”  How I let go of my wanting mind. See a couple weeks ago, during my #selfdiscoverysuperseries (aka intense #innerwork January), I made an intention to let go of wanting. Because that is something I would find myself doing ALL THE TIME. 

- I want to be taller

- I want that new bag 

- I want my kids to clean up their things

- I want more success 

- I want my husband to take out the garbage without asking 

I want. I want. I want!!!  

We all have wants of a varying degree right. In my life, identifying my wants seems easier for somethings vs other. For example, my want for clothes and material things, super easy. My wants for larger, personal things are not so clear. Why? I’m not entirely sure. I believe one reason is because I aim to please. IE, What do you want for dinner? Or what do you want to do today? I have a blank stare and ask back, well, what do you want to do? Because so much of my want depend on the  pleasure of my loved ones. Am I putting their needs / happiness/wants before my own? Maybe, maybe not. Is this a good thing? I can’t say for sure as I’m not there on my journey yet.  And I’m trying to be more assertive in my desires…. Like I want salmon for dinner, so I will make it. But again, I also know its because I know my family will enjoy that too.

Anyway.... By letting go of wanting is to be really engaged and grateful for what you have. You use those things willing and lovingly. Not dwelling, this sweater is old and I want a new one.  I’ve set an intention to let go of that wanting and by golly I think I did it.  

Now, I do still have wants but rather they are more requirement my soul needs to feel it’s best. IE, I want 8 hours of sleep (I need this), I want to wash my face and use beneficial skincare (I need that), I want moments to myself to reflect and journal (oh I def need this!). 

All those other unnecessary wants tho, I don’t need them. They only cloud my vision for the life I want to live. #Acceptance #grattitude #lovemylive #awareness #nomorewants